hey there! time for a clean up ! its been 2 years ive on hiatus on blogging . im starting it back . a lot happened during the 2 years. bitter sweet and its most common in life. here i am a single guy who aims to acheive what he wanted. Though most guys here live in this world to get girls whom can accompany them and live with them but sorry , its not my cup of tea. reason being why , i hated love so much and i believe , in this world , we can live without a love partner. the reason why i said this , im better off single . im just a normal guy who lives like just a normal person but have many kinds of experience. to me , loving a person is a difficult task requires sacrifices , hardship, friendships, and many kind of ships but what do people who failed gets, shits . i dont fancy myself loving someone because im not ready for it and i dont think im gonna get ready . truthfully , ive lost something and it is how to love someone. im not homo nor bisexual. im just not interested in having a soulmate. i dont have the looks that every girls here will be melted for , not the guy she thinks that could ever care enough for her. im the guy who is busy with career and finding time for family. my parents who brought me up and become someone who i am now. passion for music. what i wished in this world , is to see my parents smile and my mum to be proud of me and acheive what she wanted. to become a great mother and free from problems. i dont wish to give my mother hardship who worked to support and cook a meal everyday, its her duty , yes but she is a human being but only with superpowers. she's gifted. a person whom i can render to when i have problems and probably the greatest girlfriend. for now , im saving up money and spend it to neccesary stuffs then to wasting it girls that really dont deserve it. single guys are rich to be honest. they can afford most of the stuffs they wanted and to me , a car of my own . that is my future soulmate. im off to sleep now. will blog again soon .
lets make this short and simple .
ur reasons for all this just plain stupid . if ii were to bump eu outside , dun even think ii wanna smile nor talk to eu . "
if eu miss the person , by not texting , how are eu gonna show that eu miss the person . then text say. must the person ask eu ferst ?
lets get this straight , ii aint ur doormat and other things . well , hope that k-a-r-m-a get ya back . well z-a-y-i-d never ever wanna see eu again .
ah ya , forgot to tell ya , f.y.i , since ever eu changed , my love towards eu .... fall downhill and im lazy to climb back . cause people like eu doesnt deserve it .
heyy earthlings .
well its been quite a while .
while things has been worse .
hahaha .
nevermind ,
sometimes people doesnt really know how to appreciate what they have did .
same also . ii dont blame the gender but the human being it self .
ive been nice yet people take advantage .
but sometimes people dont know what came from their mouth . they just follow their heart .
hello brains are for what .
ii think we are old enough . come on ! there is no need of me to keep repeating this .
fishing has been in my latest hobby .
ii miss the last time ii fished .
wth ii forgot most of those setting the hook .
but thanks to zat ii recalled back . but need some more practice .
ive been putting aside some cash to get me some new rod and spool so that could be active in fishing again .
its fun
once eu fish , eu see the sea and it tends to make eu calm .
water has a therapeutic effects . ii like !
been busy these days .
assignments and projects and presentation not to forget phase test .
lagi satu bulan boleyh ckp buhbye school .
me & sarah
the kening naik2 . ^^
me and miera
heyy earthlings ,
hahah . im bbbaaaacccckkkk !!!
basically ii just had time to spent time blogging and feel so better now .
been hectic with things .
for quite few weeks after the day that she's left , ii feel that ii can stand alone .
ii appreciate to those people who have given me support all this while .
ii started to think clearly what really happened .
the one who can change is eu ur self that can .
ii just think it is funny about relationships .
when guys and girls broke up , they say guys are all the same . girls are all the same . yes they are the same cause guys have 1 dick and 2 balls whereas girls have a pair of boobs .
it really matters is human being . its them who can change the things that are happening . basically eu guys must think with a proper mindset . but ii see a handsome guy cheating on a ugly girls & ugly guys cheating on a pretty girls are just plain stupidity .
well ii consider myself not ugly nor handsome . im just like a plain human being .
looks is just the cover but what really matters is the heart and soul .
promises eu kept , please do think it twice . ii usually keep this and ii have a habit of thinking negative cause if any unforseen circumstances ii noe the way to solve it and find a way out .
had a fun weekends with homies . basically atiq wan ii just cant meet them cause they seems busy . but ii get to meet apian . spent time at pool , movies , lepak , percussion and sight seeing . hahaha .
in life eu must not be greedy . ii swear if eu think for ur ownself and doesnt care about others , eu are really going to be in the deepest shit eu ever get in the future .
things change recently .
well being more of my self .
many activities done alone .
cool shit larh . feeling lonely is quite good but ii do have awesome friends .
but somebody just to seems to be busy 24/7 . thats related to my picture . so confused .
neyhmind . leaving me is the best choice cause ii dont fucking care about ppl anymore .
ive been to kind to ppl already .
ive made my decisions.
ily means ii loathe eu . so please do check my ily to eu . and ask me twice .
sorry guys ferr late blogging .
my ex just passed away so im taking time .
r.i.p hunney ..
memories we had and shared is unforgettable .
ill take care of ur family . so dun worry . ill always pray for eu .
if eu were to be with me right now . eu will be sad of what my situation is .
ii did many things and it feels fun .
need somebody to talk to ? dun ask me .
eu think im a doormat to eu ... TTTAAAKKK DDDAAAPPPAAAT .
ii wanna thank to
SOME of my FRIENDS that have giving me support to continue my
wonderful life.
this is the real story of basically what happened ferr the past few days .
ii did have an accident .
ii cant recalled .
now my memory gained ive feeled relief .
this incident happen , ii only shared it with my mum and homies but neither my siblings nor friend .
this thing that ii hold now is the truth .
ii suffered from minor amnesia but slowly regain with help from homies and others .
the blow that hit me was really painful .
the reason why im aint telling this to all of eu is , ii dun wanna all of eu to worry about me .
ii really acted as like nothing happen to me but ii was faking it .
ii called my family members said that if people asked me whether am ii home , just say yes . if better say im sleeping .
so people wont worry bout me . ii was on the way home from lps .
yesterday in the wee morning hours . like 12 plus . ive chatted and feel pain . sensation of the half of my body is gone . ii cant feel anything . im going to hospital but ii went back home to check whether is my family is ouhkae , saw my brother chatting . ive said to him ii just went back from werk but ii lied . ii aint telling him cause it will seriously add some problems . about 2 plus ii quietly leave and go . ii went there with uncle .
after taking some medicing and consultation ii went back sneaking to get in .
so if eu think im lying and all sorts . this is the real story . by less troubling ppl it will less trouble me .
thank god im ouhkae and if eu wanna noe whether am ii alright , dun bother asking others . ii dont like . its like eu dun have the trust . same goes to me . ask me about somebody , ii wont be telling cause what ii say might be wrong . so let this be a lesson to y'all out there , dun ask others bout me . people may not noe the situation . eu think ii might be lying but im not .
the reason why ii remembered apian sara atiqah and bobo was they were the last bunch of guys whom ii meet .
I'm not the same person I used to be.
I'm moving on, It's just me.
Do you remember when you told me that
I'd never be good enough for anyone
And I wasn't worth your time,
Your energy.
And why didn't I listen then,
Why didn't I stand up for myself?
You made me believe,
That I was on the road to nowhere,
To nowhere.
And oh,
I was listening for way too long.
I should've known I'm way to strong,
That you'd just lead me on,
Lead me on.
And oh,
I was driving on that road to long.
Just tryna find my way back home,
The old me is dead and gone,
Dead and gone.
I've been thinking about all that we been trough,
Every place that you and me went to.
Thinking back on stupid little memories.
Thinking 'bout the times that my heart felt empty,
Wait! that was all the time,
Cause we just weren't fine, we fake it.
A true friend stabbed you in the front so tell me
Why my back is aching?
You can't say, you just choked
Hangman, there's your rope.
Dang, what's a five letter word for you
Well pick up and you got beat at your game.
Burn every bridge but you still see the smoke,
Tryna get across but you sank every boat.
You can smoke everyday of your life
But when I'm on the mic I'm a be more dope.
And oh,
I was listening for way too long.
I should've know I'm way to strong,
To let you just lead me on,
Lead me on.
See, you can love me for who I am,
Or hate me for who you think I am,
But the old me is dead and gone,
I'm moving on
Old me is dead and gone,
Dead and gone.
